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Grief cannot be tainted by time or distance
It is a beast no matter how far I go
I cannot seem to outrun its hold on me
It catches me by surprise
In incandescent moments
When I turn off the lights
Beneath a cocoon of blankets
It follows me into my dreamscape
Haunts me when I wake
Reminding me of everything I could not coax to remain
It speaks in phantom voices
Whispering sweetly in the dark
Of all the things that slipped away
Under closed lids and through open hands
Heartbeats that faded under my touch
Warm giving into cold
Hellos that turned into the hardest of goodbyes
But letting go doesn’t get easier
And moving forward is an art I will perfect
But the sting of what I walk away without
Still lingers and resonates deep around my bones
And Grief finds its way back eventually
Curling up and calling me home
by C.A. Elizabeth // Artwork by Hana Elmasry